What have I been up to???

***********Disclaimer*********** This post is not to make you sorry for me about not getting pregnant yet. I have come to terms with it and I know that someday I will be able to. I only said that because I didn't want a bunch of comments of people saying, well maybe you're pregnant!!!

This is chowder's new favorite spot. Because it has been so nice outside recently, when I get home from work I open up my back door. Chowder likes to lay inside and watch the "goings on" in his backyard. He is very funny!!

He likes to let his tongue hang out! I can honestly say I think I have the cutest dog EVER!!

My old iPod touch broke, so I went to the apple store and they gave me a replacement, which I wasn't expecting because my warranty was up. And I got solitaire on it and I play it... A LOT....especially while sitting on the couch being lazy!! I had a little cold at the beginning of the week but I finally feel like it is going away!! That is a BIG reason for the laziness.

I have been eating and craving lots of these 2. AS you can see the pan is almost gone. I have Jeff to help though! I'm not THAT bad. And no I'm not pregnant, I have been trying for the last 7 months and no luck, but I know the Lord is teaching me patience, so I will try to be patient.

This is one of the cutest little girls I know. I got to watch her last Sunday and I had a BLAST!!! She is too stinkin cute and I wish I could steal her sometimes!! She is a doll!!

And last but not least, I have been hanging with this little lady who should be delivering my nephew within the next week! All of us are SO totally excited we cannot contain our joy. These are a few pics of her friend baby shower we had. I am totally bad and didn't get any of the ones from my mom's and mine, but at least I have these, right? K is going to be the best momma and I can't wait to be the best aunt to my little Nixon!!!

This one's for you, B!!!

I am only blogging for THIS LADY here....she told me I needed to blog, so I am...

I went to Enrichment tonight for the first time in what seems like forever, and learned about being prepared and having a 72 hour kit. IN my head they sound like great things to do, but I can never quite get motivated to do one. I guess when an emergency hits and I am dying of dehydration, I will be wishing I had one of those.... But my goal after tonight, is to get serious about food storage and my 72 hour kit!!! 

Since I don't really have a picture to go along with my top post.....

I want to thank you for your comments about my little rough patch. I am beginning to feel a little better and have started to work through some of my junk. I must add that my husband has been amazing to me. It really helps to have married my best friend. I don't know what I would do without him!! But one of the little things that can always makes me smile,  is this little guy...

 he is always there to give me loves and cuddles. I love my little pooch so much!! He is naughty... a lot... but I still love him and his quirky ways!!!

I have a baby shower this weekend for my sister...I am SO excited. I have had a lot of fun with my sister preparing for this little guy. 

I need.......AGH!!!!!!

 

Please don't be appalled about what you are about to read....I am having a pity party for everyone to read. But at least I can admit that, right?

Lately I have not been feeling like my self. I have ZERO motivation, ZERO desire and no thrill for life. Thank makes living each day hard. I am not saying this out loud to get people to feel sorry for me, I just needed to get it out of my system so that hopefully I can get rid of these stupid feelings! I feel sorry for myself a LOT and I know better. I feel alone and I have an amazing husband who would do ANYTHING to make sure I was happy.  I feel like sleeping ALL day would be a good activity for me. I AM SELFISH for feeling this way and I need a boost to jump start me into Happy Town! 

Ah...I feel a little better. But I need something to help me out of this little funk I am in.

Weekend Update

Yeah!! I have pictures!! Amazing...this is mostly for Aubry because she said I was lame...j/k

So we had a really good weekend, lots of fun, friends and food. 

So Friday, my amazing sister-in-law did my hair for me!!! We went a little darker and I LOVE IT!! She always envisions what I do. It's so fun! I got to play with her twins while I was there too and I love them tonz. They have so much personality!!

 

Here is a side shot of the new do! Ah!!!!! I feel like a woman again and my hair and I no longer have fights in the morning.

Friday night we went to dinner at the Turley's!! They are the most awesome people on earth and we always have so much fun together! They taught us how to play a new card game called Hand & Foot! The picture above is me being a sore loser because the boys beat us ever stinking time. Doesn't Jeff look so gloatful??!! We stayed up late and laughed and had the BEST ribs and twice baked potatoes!! Yummy!! Thanks Turley's!

So Saturday morning I woke up and got some stuff done, was getting ready to go to my sister's house to work on her baby shower invites... was in my office at the computer....decided I wanted to not pay attention and hit the shelf out printer sits on. I took the corner of the shelf and about passed out. I got woozy and sick to my stomach and have a pretty little bump on my forehead. Awesome! Made my day. I have a constant headache now. Sweet!!

 

So as I tried to recover, I drove to my sister's house to make some cute invites for baby Nixon!!!  Her printer was possessed and it took a lot longer than it should have, but we got them finished for the most part. I will be assembling tonight and mailing out tomorrow. Pretty cute huh?

Oh yeah, Bev Turley made this for me! Too cute!! See why I love her? Awesome.

 

Next, Jeff finished painting my room for me on Wednesday and I put my bedspread on and it turned out so great! I feel like I live in a new house! I LOVE the way it turned out!! Merry Christmas. Now I have to paint my bathroom, which will be a bit more challenging because of stripes, but I will keep you posted. The board on my bed is my transformed cupboard door that I have to hang above my bed!!! Yeah!!!

Then Saturday night we went to dinner with some friends and came back to our house and played our new found card game until 2am. Boy were we tired for church.

No post would be the same without Chowder!! I love my little dog. He is so fun!! So that's it!! Happy Weekend! I am so glad Monday is almost over, work today was a doozy. I would like to never repeat today again. Bring on Tuesday!!

Update...Christmas, New Years and a whole lot of other stuff

Christmas was good, emotional for me at times, but good. A woman shouldn't have to be on her period during Christmas because it we all know how hormones react during that specail time!!Jeff could attest to that. I have an amazing husband who would stop at nothing to make sure my Christmas was perfect!! He is a dreamboat. I'm pretty sure he had a good Christmas too, he got some fun things for his totally rad Camaro, always a winner gift.



New Years was spent with family, we had a good time. However we did miss out on our annual New Year's Eve with the Ayers!! We hope you guys had fun!! The Friday after New Year's we drove up North to spend some time at my sister-in-law's family cabin and had a good relaxing time! It snowed Sunday morning as we left and I was sad to go because that meant vacation was over and we were back to work.


Happy Freaking New Year......

Is it just me, or did it seem like 2008 kind of went on a little too long??

I am SO excited for 2009. I am excited for a new year, new adventures, new struggles and new ideas!! 2008 was an extremely hard year for me personally. I know that to some, my struggles may seem minimal, but for me there were some doozies!! I learned some things about myself that I like, and that I don't like and will try to change. I am definitely looking forward to a fresh start.

I once again have ZERO pictures to document our travels and activities, but trust me when I tell you it was fun!!

Jeff bought me my paint for my bedroom for Christmas and we did the first wall and I am in love!! I can't wait to stripe the bathroom. I will post pictures when we are done! Wish me happy painting!!

Blessings....and the Christmas Spirit

This is my favorite Santa of all time. It helps that he's drinking coke, but anyways.....

This year I haven't really felt in the Christmas spirit. I've been depressed and grouchy and moody and just not into this time of year. I have been going through some personal health garbage and I put up our tree and obsessed over how I could make it better, tried to make the perfect Christmas Card and because I obsess over that, I ended up not going with anything I made, but with something I made at a Walmart Kiosk and just stupid things like that...

First off, yesterday Jeff called me at lunch and told me that his dad was admitted to the hospital, thinking he had had a mild heart attack. And all of a sudden, life was put into perspective for me. George is going to be fine. He has 3 blocked arteries and they put in 1 stint last night and will do the other 2 on the 29th. One was 99% blocked and the others were 90% blocked. It is truly a miracle he is alive. We were able to make it to the hospital before his procedure and all of Jeff's brother's were there to give George a blessing. It was offered by Andy and I truly felt like a miracle was taking place. It was an amazing experience, one that I will never forget.

So then today, I decided to snap out of my funk and get happy. I was able to get all of my Christmas Cards/Letters in the mail, I got some shopping done and it was mostly for Jeff and I finally felt like I was in the Christmas Spirit. I know this season is not all about presents, but being able to buy things for other people really just made me happy. I am making a couple of gifts as well and I almost have those finished too. I know it's kind of late to be finally in the game here....but it's true what they say. When you stop focusing on yourself and focus on others, you really stop feeling so sorry for yourself.

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope most of you were nothing like me and have been whistling a happy tune since December 1st!!

P.S. I got Jeff some really fun gifts this year and I am SO excited for him to open them on Christmas morning!!! I can't wait until I have kids someday to share their excitement too!!!

POST 100!!!!!

What a perfect post to celebrate my 100th post!!!!

To my baby....

32 years and 1 day ago...this sweet piece of man meat was brought into this world!!! There could of been plenty of women that could have married this man, but he chose me!!!

Jeff, you are truly one in a million!!! There never has been and never will be another like you! You are the best husband a girl could ask for. You are sweet, manly and everything in between. I couldn't love anyone more than you!! Thanks for being born babe!!! I love you so much! Happy Birthday!!!

Learning

So I love how when I finally feel like I have life under control, something happens that sets me off and I feel like I am back where I started? I am totally rambling on right now,  and there are so many thoughts in my head but I don't feel comfortable enough to share them in public yet. SO....you get this confusing rambling of words instead!!

BUT IN OTHER HAPPY AND NON-CONFUSING NEWS??!!!!

Jeff turns the BIG 32 on Thursday and my brothers Aaron and Andy have a birthday tomorrow....and my sweet brother-in-law Dave had a birthday at the end of November...so in their honor....here is a handsome pic of them all!!! Plus my Dad....he is always important. Thanks to you all for being the MEN in my life!! I love you all!!

(Aaron, what is with the face? This is the best one I could find!! Aren't they handsome?)